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中島敦 | ɴᴀᴋᴀᴊɪᴍᴀ ᴀᴛsᴜsʜɪ ([personal profile] moonlighttiger) wrote in [community profile] crazynoisybizarretown2018-09-13 12:52 am
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-10 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
[Being the perceptive person that he is, Dazai can see plain as day how nervous Atsushi is to be alone with him in this kind of situation. He’s not trying to intimidate him, of course, but there must be a certain amount of apprehension in letting yourself relax and have fun with your mentor. But oddly enough, Dazai doesn’t mind the idea of being more than that, but only if Atsushi wanted such a thing.

He sure is fun to tease, though.
]

It’s a ghost story! About a girl that was trapped in a well and died! Isn’t that tragic? Then she comes back to haunt people!

[He says with a smile...

Also Atsushi hasn’t lived if he hasn’t tried Oreos.
]

Really? They’re my favorite! Go on, try them!
Edited 2018-11-10 07:26 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-11 08:37 am (UTC)(link)
[The things that Dazai is afraid of are much less fantastic than ghosts or monsters. Never finding a reason to truly live, not carrying out Odasaku’s dying wish, watching the people he’s allowed himself to care for die. Everything he’s ever wanted has never truly been his, and even if they did somehow come to him, he’d lose them in the end. That’s the sad life that Dazai lives, and that’s why he isn’t afraid of any horror movie.]

Hmm...that depends, doesn’t it? Do you think ghosts are scary?

[Dazai chuckles when Atsushi’s face lights up from eating the cookie. He’s so cute...]

Help yourself to as many as you like~

[Oh? Atsushi is offering him a cookie? How generous! He’ll just lean over and snatch it with his mouth like an animal before munching on it with a pleased hum.]

Delicious~

[This is already fun!]

Are you ready to start the movie?
Edited 2018-11-11 08:38 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-11 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh? Well then, this might be a bit scary for you.

[Dazai can be cute and he knows it, he just doesn’t often show this side of himself to others unless there’s a reason for it. But right now he’s actually being very genuine, and he grabs another cookie before shoving it in his mouth with a pleased little sound. Not as good as crab, but definitely tasty nonetheless.

The movie starts out a little slow, but soon there’s a spooky part where a woman is wandering around in the dark during a power outage, where the ghost may appear at any turn. Of course Dazai knows exactly when the scare happens, but he’s just mischievous enough not to warn Atsushi first. Instead he simply watches him out of the corner of his eye, waiting to see if Atsushi will jump when the ghost is shown.
]
Edited 2018-11-11 23:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-13 11:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Little does Atsushi realize that Dazai is studying his every reaction instead of watching the movie. Look at him, wide-eyed and shoving cookies in his face like a chipmunk preparing for winter. He’s so adorable that Dazai wants to reach over and pinch his cheeks, but he resists the urge. For now.

Oh, that’s an even better reaction than he was expecting! Leave it to Atsushi to surprise even Dazai. He has the biggest shit-eating grin on his face right now, and he can’t help but snicker when Atsushi grabs him and tries to use him as a human shield.
]

Oh my! I guess I forgot just how scary this film is!

[That whiny tone is actually rather endearing, and rather than pull away Dazai reaches up to gently pet Atsushi’s hair.]

We can watch something else, Atsushi-kun. I just wanted to see if I could scare you a little.
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-14 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[Yeah, he didn’t forget, he’s just Like That. He suspects Atsushi will catch onto that soon enough, but it’s kind of fun to let him think that Dazai is completely fearless for now. Maybe he kind of is, with horror movies at least, but he doesn’t think that Atsushi is stupid or childish for reacting that way. Most people get scared at least once during horror movies, after all. Unless it’s just a godawful movie with no budget or something.

Oh no, he actually did forget about that next scare. Oops. He doesn’t mind Atsushi clinging to him even tighter though.
]

We can switch movies. I did bring a few others.

[Dazai reaches for the remote and switches off the television before wrapping his arms around Atsushi to try and comfort him. He doesn’t see him as a child, just a person that’s scared and needs reassurance.]

You didn’t have to brave it for my sake, you know.
Edited 2018-11-14 21:02 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-15 09:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh no, what has Dazai done? Atsushi seems legitimately upset about getting scared by the movie, and for once in his life Dazai actually feels guilty about something. Something besides his awful past, anyway. He continues to hold Atsushi close, gently petting his hair when he buries his face in his shirt.

And here’s where Atsushi actually manages to surprise him, which is an incredibly difficult thing to do. Leave it to his star pupil to pull it off.
]

Atsushi-kun...

[Ah...feeling Atsushi slide his arms around him and hold him back is so nice...Dazai really doesn’t deserve it. And yet he’s selfish enough to indulge in it, even if he was the one to put Atsushi in such distress in the first place.]

You haven’t disappointed me, Atsushi-kun. And I am proud of you.

[He rests his chin on top Atsushi’s head cutely.]

Do you want to watch something nicer? Or maybe just stay like this for a while?
Edited 2018-11-15 09:30 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-16 10:25 am (UTC)(link)
[If Atsushi were to ask Dazai outright why he’s proud of him he might just be surprised at the answer. It’s not only because of how far he’s come in controlling his ability and utilizing it to its full potential, but he’s also grown emotionally and mentally, and Dazai really is proud of him. He sticks to his ideals even when it’s difficult, and doesn’t simply slaughter all those in his way. Maybe he’s still a bit of a scaredy cat sometimes, but he does come through when someone else is in danger and needs his help.

Honestly, why wouldn’t he be proud of Atsushi?
]

Of course.

[He’ll hold Atsushi for as long as he likes. Eventually though he’ll try to lie back on the futon and pull Atsushi down with him, wanting to keep him close for now.]

Feeling better?
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-17 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[Atsushi isn’t very heavy at all, and despite his scrawny build, Dazai can definitely take having Atsushi on top of him. He’s so warm and soft, and he can’t stop himself from sliding his fingers through that choppy white hair. It’s like having a particularly vocal, affectionate cat curled up on his chest, and Dazai is loving every second of it.

He hums in response to Atsushi’s thanks, letting his eyelids flutter closed for a moment as he lets this all sink in. This kind of warmth...he doesn’t think he’s experienced it in quite a while.

A soft, airy laugh escapes him as he soothes a hand down Atsushi’s back.
]

Then we can keep doing this until you’re tired of it. Or until you fall asleep, whichever happens first.

[He finally opens his eyes to look at Atsushi again, his lips curved into a soft smile.]

Do you forgive me for putting on such a terrible movie?
Edited 2018-11-17 06:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-17 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Not at all~

[He’s not afraid to give Atsushi headpats or hair ruffles when they’re out on a job, but he’s purposely kept himself from touching him too much out of a respect for his boundaries. Dazai might joke and tease and act like a goof, but he’d never want to make Atsushi feel uncomfortable around him. He took a risk letting himself indulge in more intimate touches, but Atsushi doesn’t seem to mind. He even seems to like them, and if Dazai can ease his fears in such a simple way, then how could he possibly refuse?

Hell, maybe Dazai himself could actually manage to sleep like this.

He looks up Atsushi when he sits up, surprised at that reaction. This sweet, soft boy...
]

Atsushi-kun...you’re allowed to be afraid, so long as you don’t let fear paralyze you.

[He holds his arms out again, and this time he’s got a genuine smile on his face.]

Now come back here. I wasn’t done holding you yet~!
Edited 2018-11-17 21:50 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-18 08:09 am (UTC)(link)
Of course, Atsushi-kun.

[He could get addicted to having Atsushi close like this, because Dazai really isn’t that close with many people these days, and Atsushi is certainly special to him. Not just because he’d saved him, but because he sees a bright, hopeful future in him that he could never obtain himself. Odasaku would’ve wanted him to watch over Atsushi and monitor his progress, but of course that’s not the only reason Dazai enjoys his company.

He’s about to protest, or joke that Atsushi could maybe buy him some canned crab, but then he goes and says that, and Dazai can’t help but laugh. Not at his expense, but because he’d almost forgotten about that conversation.
]

As much as I’d enjoy seeing you in one, I’d only want you to wear it if you wanted to, Atsushi-kun.

[He doesn’t want Atsushi to feel like he owes him anything, really, not when Dazai was the one who suggested the scary movie.]

But there is something else you could do.

[He reaches up to tuck Atsushi’s long piece of hair behind his ear.]

Let me take you on a proper date sometime.
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-18 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[It’s adorable how Atsushi is so eager to please him, but he also doesn’t want him to think that he has to do outrageous things to make him happy. Maybe they can work up to the maid outfit, but a proper date sounds like a better place to start.

He sits up, still smiling as Atsushi gives him that flabbergasted look.
]

Yes, a real date. A date-date, even! With roses and wine and everything! Or maybe just coffee and canned crab. I’m not picky!

[He tilts his head curiously, his fingers still playing with Atsushi’s silky hair.]

Would you like that?

[He’s genuinely curious. It’s only fair if Atsushi wants to be with someone his own age, who isn’t a walking bag of issues. Of course they could always just go out to have fun and worry about the consequences later.]
Edited 2018-11-18 23:42 (UTC)
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-21 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
[He kind of likes having Atsushi cling to him like this, and he tests the waters by resting his hands on Atsushi’s waist.]

Really? We could get chazuke too, you know~

[Dazai doesn’t really have a healthy diet, so almost anything sounds good to him. Sharing a meal is always better than eating alone, after all, and he’s not going to be too picky about what they eat.]

Oh?

[Well now that’s just a little bit surprising to hear. Atsushi looks so cute when he’s all blushy and needy and honest, and Dazai really wants to eat him up right now...

But for now he settles for brushing the back of his hand over Atsushi’s cheek, his smile growing incredibly fond.
]

Do you like it when I touch you, Atsushi-kun?

[He has a feeling he already knows the answer.]
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[personal profile] bandagedheart 2018-11-22 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
Then I’ll make sure to treat you to some.

[It’s not expensive, and Atsushi should be able to eat his fill without breaking the bank, even with that voracious appetite of his. Dazai might just eat a bowl or three himself.

He definitely enjoys how responsive Atsushi is to his touch, and he wishes he could take a video of how goddamn adorable Atsushi looks rubbing his cheek against Dazai’s hand like that. He’s sure Atsushi wouldn’t appreciate that though, and Dazai might just want to keep this beautiful sight all to himself.

He smiles warmly at that little confession, though it makes him just a bit sad as well, because Dazai used to be a very different man, and he never would’ve treated Atsushi so gently back then.
]

I’ll touch you all you want, Atsushi-kun. All you have to do is ask.

[Even better than the way Atsushi leans into his hand is how he fixes his gaze on Dazai’s lips as if he wants to claim them as his own. It has Dazai’s smile turning into a playful little smirk, and he slides a finger under Atsushi’s chin to lift his head up, as if he’s going in for a kiss. But he doesn’t just yet...]

Do you want to kiss me, Atsushi-kun?

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