[ when dazai leans back, atsushi fears that he's withdrawing from their hug, but then he's pulled along and he finds himself on top of dazai. it's certainly not a bad feeling, but of course the first thing that comes to his mind is the nagging worry that he might be too heavy for dazai. he doesn't want to crush him under his weight. ]
Y-yes. Thank you, Dazai-san..
[ his voice is muffled thanks to the fabric of dazai's shirt, so atsushi finally wills himself to turn his head to the side. in this position he can hear dazai's heart beat in his chest. it's like a pleasant reminder that dazai is still alive, despite all his suicide attempts.. it's kind of a relief to hear it. ]
I think I like this better than movies.
[ atsushi's face feels hot the moment he utters those words. what is he thinking? it makes him sound like he's asking for dazai to hold him for longer - and he is, now that he thinks about it, but isn't that incredibly selfish of him? ]
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Y-yes. Thank you, Dazai-san..
[ his voice is muffled thanks to the fabric of dazai's shirt, so atsushi finally wills himself to turn his head to the side. in this position he can hear dazai's heart beat in his chest. it's like a pleasant reminder that dazai is still alive, despite all his suicide attempts.. it's kind of a relief to hear it. ]
I think I like this better than movies.
[ atsushi's face feels hot the moment he utters those words. what is he thinking? it makes him sound like he's asking for dazai to hold him for longer - and he is, now that he thinks about it, but isn't that incredibly selfish of him? ]