[ even if dazai told him a hundred times, atsushi would still be self conscious over asking his mentor for physical contact. what if dazai doesn't want to touch him one of those days? atsushi would only feel terrible for imposing on him with his selfish desires, and likely never ask him for anything ever again.
not to punish dazai, of course, but because it's a good reminder for him not to get too attached to people. just the thought of dazai not wanting to be with him, in whatever way that might be, makes atsushi's chest hurt. ]
Uhm..
[ he can actually feel how the tips of his ears become hot and red. hopefully dazai can't see it. ]
Yes.. Can I?
[ they're already so close.. atsushi only has to lean in for it. the only thing keeping him from doing so is the fact that he has no idea how. how to kiss someone, that is. ]
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[ even if dazai told him a hundred times, atsushi would still be self conscious over asking his mentor for physical contact. what if dazai doesn't want to touch him one of those days? atsushi would only feel terrible for imposing on him with his selfish desires, and likely never ask him for anything ever again.
not to punish dazai, of course, but because it's a good reminder for him not to get too attached to people. just the thought of dazai not wanting to be with him, in whatever way that might be, makes atsushi's chest hurt. ]
Uhm..
[ he can actually feel how the tips of his ears become hot and red. hopefully dazai can't see it. ]
Yes.. Can I?
[ they're already so close.. atsushi only has to lean in for it. the only thing keeping him from doing so is the fact that he has no idea how. how to kiss someone, that is. ]